There is nothing like a move to evaluate one’s change in perceptions and what will the future be like. After 16 years in one place (4 times as long as any other place I have ever lived), I had a lot of opportunities to look how I defined “important,” “necessary,” “I can’t make a decision on that,” “ahh, I can’t let go of THAT,” “memories,” “I might need that in the future,” “it’s a family memento,” “I could fix that,” … well you get the idea.
This move literally came out of “left field” or “nowhere” as they say. On one level, I find it incredibly amusing how Spirit works. I had tried to sell my place before, and was not successful. A couple of years ago, I couldn’t have sold my place for the amount of money that I purchased it. I know that because I was looking for a new place to live, and that was one of the pieces of depressing news. Now that I was retired, and making a lot less money than before, I had pretty much decided that I would just stay where I was. There weren’t a lot of possibilities around my area where I would be able to “afford” to live.
A few months ago, I started receiving multiple phone calls from multiple companies that wanted to entice me into a lower interest rate. Since I already had one at 3.75%, that was pretty hard to do. There were enough of the calls, that I even called my bank and asked if they had a lower deal and they said no. I took one more call from someone I had talked to before, was escalated to the “let’s make a deal man,” who was incredibly informative. After several minutes of casual conversation (15-20 minutes), he said something like “let’s just see how things would stack up.” I gave him what I owed, the interest rate and he asked me how much it was worth. Told him no idea. He said let me check, and came back with a figure. I started laughing. He asked why was I laughing? Was it because it was too low, and I said no, it was way too high. (remember, a couple of years ago, I couldn’t sell it for what I bought it for). Out of my mouth casually comes “if it worth that much, I’m going to sell the place” (get out while I can make some money). He suggests that I ask a local agent, and even looked one up for me and gave me her name and number. I called and left a message for that agent. I didn’t hear back for a few days and let it go. I was working on if it was meant to be, it would happen.
She did call back, asked a few questions and said yes, that was reasonable. I said let me think on it. I asked my Trusted Source about it and their comment was “we would like to see you move around for a while and trust that everything would be ok.” I slept on it, and called her back and said let’s do it. She gave me a six-month contract, I told her that I only wanted three since I didn’t want to move in the winter. Either it was sold by the end of September or it wasn’t. She laughed and said we would probably just need a two-week contract. I of course thought to myself, “Yeah, I’ve heard that before.” I just figured that it was in the hands of Spirit and what would happen would happen. I truthfully didn’t care if it sold or didn’t; it was a more of let’s see what will happen here. I listed on Thursday, had an offer on Monday, and contract on Wednesday. The contract landed just before I left for my already planned road trip. I would return from that for a for a few days, do a quick trip to NM for a workshop and then have 2 weeks to pack. When I received the offer, I said to myself, “well, I guess it is time to move.” What is appropriate to mention here, is that once I listed the property the “lower your mortgage interest rate” calls stopped. (Hmmmm, is there a message in that?)
This decision was and is a BIG decision. I am aware of the fact that I have given up my single largest tangible asset. At one time I would have said my single largest asset, and thus discounted the fact that in fact, I am the largest asset that I have. I also recognize that on a fall-back fixed income, I would not be able to afford living in the same area. To rent what I had would be 2 to 2.5 times as much as my former mortgage. I have a few physical issues that have developed in the last couple of weeks. In fact, I remember the moment where I began to think, well, maybe I should stay in the area because I have great doctors, and then said “Rats, you sound just like your parents” and that decided it. I was not going to be tied to an area just because it had good doctors. TRUST that all will be well. My big next lesson.
As I have talked this over with a few friends, one of them told me that I could just tell people that I was “excitedly terrified.” At the time he told me, it was totally applicable. I have moved much more toward just plain excited. This is a big step into the unknown. Out of my previously normal comfort zone. Yet there has been an underlying feeling throughout this journey that all IS well, that there is a hand of the Divine in the midst of this. How do I know? It has been a basically smooth process; I have not been freaked out about it; I have cleared out a lot of stuff, including my prized office furniture, and I have said yes to my uncertain future. So, I am off to BE the Wizard!
How is the universe knocking on your door? What adventure awaits you?